From a Dog's point of view: Dear Family and Friends, I'll start by saying that you humans are much too complicated. It seemed as if one day everything was normal, (as normal as my pets can possibly be), and the next... holy hell rocked my world! My pets ran around like chickens with their heads cut off. They got boxes and started stuffing their things into them. I kept getting stepped on because everybody was running in and out while I was running in circles. My Master was grumpy and I don't handle that at all. grr. This process ran on for days. My home, as I new it, was gone. We went for a ride in my Master's truck; about 10 miles north of our town. The truck stops and I see this large building. Some human had no taste, this building was a blue, loud blue. There were many doors. We entered, and as if a miracle had happened, this place had stuff in it like our house had. I was happy to see the familiar things but I over heard my Master's say that this place was once a gas station. I have no idea what that is but it seemed to get a good laugh from people. The Mom master said she felt like a gypsy with a lot of junk. It was primitive living. They had to do with what they had. The plumbing was very bad and my Dad master had to do a lot of work on it to have water. Food was especially primitive. I learned that Propane is a valuable gas and without it, we could have had it a lot worse. Dad, had a BBQ grill with a burner on it. (we had no stove) We have an electric skillet and a microwave and a toaster oven. We were good. The propane also came in handy when the cold weather came. We had an abundance of heaters to keep us warm but it was nothing like central heat and air! My Dad states we were homeless but I think home is where your pets are. I guess there were other things going on that I did not know about. They started talking about "The Farm". Dad would leave and come back then leave again. All I know is that I don't like change and everything was changing, ... again. My Dad finally took me to this place and it was heaven. I had this whole big world that I didn't know existed. Wild chickens they call yard birds. They are so fun to chase. There are trees and land to run around and play. Whenever Dad said he was going to the farm, I was at the door waiting to go. I loved it there! Last week my pets started moving these boxes again and I panicked, I mean how could they do this to me? I liked it here, I get to go to the farm and now they are leaving again... But to my surprise, this stuff went to the farm. I saw my Master's things and I knew I was home. It isn't a palace, it's a small house, but my family fits perfectly in it. When you look at it from the outside, it's not much. We have some land and it's ours. It is being remodeled and we wanted to have it done before we moved into it but they decided that more than 3 months in the shop (gas station) they were ready to get out. My Masters bedroom is the dining room, master Harlea is in the living room and master Alex has put his bedroom in a tipout. He loves that! The other two bedrooms are under construction. Only one bathroom but I guess they don't mind it. There is well water that smells of wonderful sulfur. I love the smell but some of my pets have a problem with it. They drink a lot of bottled water. The plus side, they say, is no water bill. Just power.(Whatever that means) Through all of this, Murphy, of Murphy's Law, stayed with us but he was actually funny. I wanted to bite his ankles but my pets wouldn't let me. They all seemed to handle about anything. I heard a lot of; " Thank you God" or "Isn't God amazing?". I couldn't see who they were talking to but if it's who I think, the God who created me, then they were right! When I look back at the last little while, I see one set of foot prints and now we are being carried to our little Farm in the country. All my love and scraps to you all and Happy New Year! ~Peanut Duffin To all from Master Annie... I realize peanut did not explain all of Murphy's antics. It was just life happening when we felt it should slow down. We were blessed. God showed his hand in everything that happened. We had food, a roof over our head, and transportation. BLESSED I say!! He gave us a house. This is just one example of what God did: We were desperate to find shelter at the beginning. We had 3 days to get out of the house. We spent hours looking in newspapers, driving around, looking for land, anything. We had wanted this place outside of Van Buren. It was great but there was someone already interested. We were told to call back and see if the closing went through. Ry was going to blow it off, we were feeling defeated by this time. I made him call anyway, listening to one side of the conversation; I knew the closing went through. Then all of a sudden, Ry says something like... "Oh really? Any land with that? Where is it? Could we come look at it?" It was this guys Nephew, he and his wife were moving to California and wanted to sell their little farm. We made an appointment to go see it and as soon as Jeff saw my husband; he said to Ann, his wife, "He fits perfectly here." We soon saw God sitting around us. Coincidences were popping up all around us. They had a cat, named "Miss Kitty", and a dog who was their spoiled baby. Jeff was a taxidermist and tool man, and he did woodworking.His wife, Ann, was a nurse. We fell in love with the house from first site and we all agreed, it was ours. (Murphy did his hardest work here, but he failed misrably) Jeff then told us that they were going to put the "for sale" sign up and list it in the newspaper the next day. They both said, "God is here" and we agreed. There were other signs of our God having his hand in all of this. But I think that was the biggest sign of all. All this happened with just one phone call we were going to blow off. I believe that we are all stronger for this. I believe this is where we are suppose to be. (3 months of constant Deja vu`s) All of us are fine and should not have received any post tramatic stress. Ry is still working on the house. Dani and Michael are in the Fort and doing as fine as can be expected. My Grandson is growing so fast. 3 and a half months and the greastest thing on this earth! He has rolled over a few times this week and is a giggle bug. If you can remember Dani's giggle, well he is just as animated. He is a good baby and he is spoiled rotton. Alex is, well, being Alex. He has come home with piercings and a tatoo. I know some of you are freaking out on this one but just remember whose son he is. MINE! Not that I am extremely happy but he is doing good in school now, and to me, that's what counts. Harlea still hates the school here. I am hoping that next year it will be better. Then she will be in high school and it will be completely different. 8th grade here is really stupid. It is still middle school in Cedarville. So it was like she was thrown back into grade school again. Very regressed. Her main thing these days is getting to design her room. So far it sounds like Hot pink and black is the color scheme. lol I'm glad she can do it. I know our old house was nice but I was never able to form it to our personality. This time, it's different. Grandma's house will look like no other when we are through. hee hee. Yes, I'll send pictures. I have been doing well. I did really good without this thing till we moved in here. Then I started wigging, so the night before last, Ry and Harlea brought it home and set it up. Now I am remembering all the crap this thing was doing. What was I thinking? My health has been the same. I started doing more things and the sore almost doubled in size so I am back off it again. On Alex's bday, we went to golden corral and by the time I got home, I was feeling funky, within an hour, I was sick. I mean really sick. Don't know if it was food poisoning or if I got the flu Dani and Michael had. All I know is by the next morning I asked Ry to take me to the ER. We all were scared. I have only been that sick 2 times before, Food poisoning about 8 yrs ago and when I went to the hospital with my foot. Yes, it was that bad. I really thought I was going to die. Ry admitted later that he thought so too. It scared him, I think more than it did me. I was wishing for it to happen NOW! (have to find the humor in it) :)~ Well I didn't end up going to the hospital, I couldn't get ready, I was so weak. I told Ry I'd wait it out, and I told Dani she could take me in the morning if I wasn't any better. I was, but it took me about 4 days to recover. I am now fine and dandy but I think I may need to schedual surgery for Carpel Tunnel, my hands are killing me!! I guess they are telling me that it is time to wrap this thing up. I hope I have entertained you all for a while. I really need to write a book about my pathetic life. ha ha ha. Love to you all!! I hope you are all fine and happy. I hope your Christmas's were merry and fun! Happy New Year!! Lets make this one drama free!

Well, here we go. We just received our 3 day eviction notice. We have no idea what's going to happen next. I will let all of you know where we are when we get settled. Keep us in your prayers as we will you. The place we wanted has been sold. There is a 1% chance that they won't do the closing today at 4pm. If that is the case, we will get it but I'm not holding my breath. Take care everyone and I'll talk to you soon. Peace, Love & Light...

I guess I am feeling selfish and I want to rant and rave for a bit. Forgive me for my bad behavior. I want the place in the country that we found. I want to go get new living room set, kitchen table, beds for my two kids (that are home) I want a new bed. I also want an electric chair. hee hee "wheel" lmao. I want the piano that was there too. I want a savings account for Scorpio and babybronc. I want I want I want... I want my hubby to see that we need to get out of this house. I want him to see how scared I am that they are going to come to our front door and hand us a bill for attorney fees, closing costs and rent for each day we have been here after the auction. I want him to see that staying here is not a good thing. He thinks we can pay off the house and they will let us. I DON'T want to stay here. We have bills to pay too. If we stay here that won't happen. It will be so stressful. But I can't say any of this outloud. I can't breathe sometimes because of the stress. I WANT out of this never ending cycle of hurry up and wait. I WANT.... Peace, Love & Light...

I remember a time when I wrote almost everyday . Now I have to think of things to say. lol Like that's hard for me. I saw Doc yesterday, things look the same. The best part was I took Baby Bronc's pictures with me. I got to show him off. heehee I miss him when he's not here. ho hum. Still no news on the house. I think I pissed a friend off yesterday. All of a sudden she hung up on me. If we had been disconnected, she would have called back. She asked if I had been taking my shots and I answered her and click It's a pity she didn't wait to understand why. Why, you ask? It costs money to by the needles. She's the type that wants to fix everyone and when she has money she thinks she needs to give it to you. Yes, that's sweet and all, but we are responcibile for these things. I'm not a charity case. Almost every person we know, lives pay check to pay check. I don't want friends trying to support us. Especially someone who is also having money problems. I guess maybe all of you could get mad at me too. But I'm not being bad. I'm staying sugar free, I'm watching what I eat and I am taking all of my other medicine. I hope you don't judge me too harshly. I should also confess that she can be mad at me. I'm sorry she feels the need to be that way but right now I don't have the time or energy to play along. I sure miss you guys. I wish you were here to meet the baby and hang out. I have a personal note to some of you. Nays... It still won't let me on your MSN space, but I am also having the same problem with another friend. It must be me, I guess I'm not holding my mouth right or something.lol Can you also give Angie a message for me? I have not forgot about her but I have lost her blog address. I hope she is ok. Angel Spirit, GREAT videos, thx I needed a good laugh. Midnight Angel, could you let me know your hours and when I can catch you here? That's all for now. Peace, Love and Light...

I'm wondering if no news is good news. I mean they auctioned off the house last Wednesday and noone has even tried to contact us. This is pretty bizzare. To tell you the truth, between us and the lamppost. I want to move. I would love to get out of town. It is growing so fast here, lots of people moving to this place. Don't get me wrong, I love this town but I want to be out where there is the option of privacy. Close enough to town but far enough away. Finantially I see it as being better for us but Rain doesn't. I don't know. He gets upset if I say any of this; so I keep my mouth shut and let him do what he thinks is best. IT'S MAKING ME CRAZY!!! (hush, I can hear you)On to better things. Baby Bronc, have I told you lately how much I love that little guy?? He is so precious. All three of them are doing good. Midnight is struggling with a little post partum depression . She has the post worries. and doubts. I remember those feelings. Ickey. Anyway, I see Doc in the morning and then I think we are going by the police station to see what is taking so long on the case of Pugs and the pussy. We have not heard a word. I'm going to be looking out for a new attorney, This will be a civil case., Pugs recieved over a thousand dollars in medical care over this. grrr... Next... If you are not getting emails to the netscape.net addy, there is a good reason. Their email sucks, I am basically using yahoo and Hotmail. Just in case you don't have them: Amethist_Jade@yahoo.com ; AmethistsSong@hotmail.com Peace, Love & Light...